Comic 464 - Sir Bradley

3rd Oct 2016, 6:00 PM in Chapter Seven
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464 - Sir Bradley
Average Rating: 5 (16 votes)

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rufiangel 3rd Oct 2016, 6:00 PM edit delete
rufiangel
Happy Monday, everyone! :D

Sorry for the unofficial hiatus! It's been a while since the last update, I know.

---<<< Long Rambly Talk Here - Feel Free to Skip To The End! >>>---

So uhm... you know how I update this webcomic throughout the week while I work full-time as well, right? Well, I don't talk about it too much, but the reality is that it's a lot of work. I don't get a lot of free time to myself and I have other obligations throughout the week as well, so this commitment takes a toll on me when I start questioning - at a super deep core level XD; - why I'm bothering to work so hard on this.

Essentially, working on the webcomic itself isn't what's being questioned, but rather why I work hard to post updates on time, i.e. figuring out exactly why I try so hard to be a disciplined person. It's not for recognition, it's not for money and it's not because someone tells me to be one. So I was dumbfounded for a while.

You might find this really weird, and honestly, it IS weird. It hasn't really been easy getting through this weird motivational crisis especially because every person who wanted to encourage me during this pause basically told me to take a break. But that only reinforced the problem, which was the huge question mark of why I bother, since no one seems to really care about updates on time. You see these kinds of threads in the forums often too, people wondering what kind of update schedule would work best, and responses generally ranging from "I never notice it's been updated until I see it in my feed" to "I don't care". So what stops me from just updating once a month, or to just whenever I feel like it? Not that there's anything wrong with those schedules if that's all you can manage. The question here is that if I have a choice, then why should I go down the harder path?

I know I sound like a jerk so I do apologise because it's not my intention to reduce the encouragement people gave me during the small pause. I am extremely grateful for all the kind words that people gave me during the break and it really gave me a lot of help to know that people care, truly.

It's just that when no one gives me that push I need to get a grip and just work hard, then the only person left to do it is, well, myself.

And God.

That's what it ultimately came down to. At the end of the day, whatever I do, I have to strive to do it excellently, and do it well. It's about being responsible with what I've been given and doing all I can to make sure I'm giving it my all. That's what I'm made to do.

There's grace in here as well. I'm still learning and fumbling along, and that's okay. But sometimes, I just have to slap myself in the face, give myself a pep-talk and keep going. And what I've found is that I can't always see it, but there's always a hand pushing me from behind.

---<<< End Long Rambly Talk Here - TL;DR: Work Hard, Play Hard. >>>---

Thanks for your patience during the downtime, everyone. :) And this is bad timing, but I'll be out of town this weekend ('till next Monday) with church retreat, so the next update may not come until next Thursday. But I will still give it my best shot to make this Thursday's update because I want to, so we'll see!

Thanks as always for reading! <3

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Comments:

mjkj 3rd Oct 2016, 6:02 PM edit delete reply
mjkj
Oh, he is biased - as the father of the slaver...

Welcome back, Rufi <3 *hugs*

Ah, so that is what you were struggling about... well, yeah, it is not that I do not care about timely updates - I just care about your well being more =) *hugs* <3 (I guess you know that) - and yeah, that guiding hand is good to have =D

Hmm, if you need somebody to yell at you to keep your updates on time - then just tell me and I will try my best to do so - I just do not know how effective I would be... =S

rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:06 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Lolol father of the slaver? XD;

I appreciate that you care about my well-being, Mjkj. :) But that is not at stake necessarily when it comes to disciplined, timely update schedules, so you don't always have to fret about my health, mental or physical!

I wasn't saying I wanted anyone to yell at me, actually XD; my point was that even when no one is telling me to do what I'm doing on a timely basis, I need to find my own motivation and reasons for doing my best. The reality is that if I rely on people to tell me what to do, I will stop doing it when people stop. But that isn't a very healthy motivation in the long-run, imho.
Matt Knab 3rd Oct 2016, 6:26 PM edit delete reply
Matt Knab
The most important part is that you are having fun and feeling satisfied. Don't worry about satisfying US. :)
Only you can decide how to best balance art with the rest of your life. If that's 3 pages a week, or 1 a month, or whatever. You have to do what feels good/right for you.
mjkj 4th Oct 2016, 4:22 AM edit delete reply
mjkj
Indeed.
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:06 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Thank you, Matt! :) That is true. I'm always struggling to find the right balance and it's still a learning process for me, since I'm still less than a year into the whole full-time-job-with-comic malarkey. The fact you balance family with all of what you do is frankly amazing and I will never stop being in awe of you and what you do :'D <3 (youaremyrolemodel)

I'll take what you said to heart, thank you <3 *salutes*
KAM 3rd Oct 2016, 6:31 PM edit delete reply
KAM
Everyone who had "She's still alive" in the betting pool... wins!

;-)

Okay, we all win! :-D
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:06 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Wait, doesn't that mean nobody wins? XD;;;;;;
Thanks KAM for betting on my still being alive though, it's good to know! :'D <33 sorry for being absent. I did try to keep a post here and there on FB and the A/N but I know it's not the same as regularly updating!
azureXtwilight 3rd Oct 2016, 7:27 PM edit delete reply
azureXtwilight
Aw, Rufi! As your doc and a butter, I should tell you to rest! I really don't mind slow updates, I just want this not to burn you too much and make you want to stop, bad rufi :'(
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:07 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
LOL Azure-rin XDD *hugs the butter meltily*
Thanks for your care and concern <3 but I am not burnt out! Or even burning out XD; PLUS I actually did spend at least 10 days resting :'D <33
I will take your advice as my buttery doctor to rest more often though. Sleep is good!! XD;;
CiciEnixa 3rd Oct 2016, 10:28 PM edit delete reply
CiciEnixa
@alt text: Please tell me somewhere in there is someone called "Stabber" (Though from the sounds of it, Ms. Preserver is their "Stabber" as well XDDD)

Sir Bradley is looking pretty impressive with all the red and gold armor, and Mr. Carer looks so... so fluffy <3 (canitakehimhomepls?)

*squishes rufi and rolls with her to the magic burrito* I think if you look at everyone's comments above (as well as alllll the other comments of the past), well... know with all your heart that all of us love you very much. Our first response whenever you are unwell/unable to page is for you to take a break, because you always work so darn hard with so many things on your plate, and we always assume that what you need is a break.

And of course we want you to keep on paging and updating as often as is humanely possible! That's why we want you to take it easy when a lot of life stuff starts happening. But know that because we wuv you, we will always think of your health and well-being first (and quite honestly, I would never ask you to page with the determination of a thousand tiny elves motivated by choco unless you ask me to because I would not want to sound like I'm demanding for the next page, and if you think that's ridiculous feel free to bop me and tell me to tell you to page like your life depends on it ;D)

... That got so long XD But yes, know that we wuv you, and we want you to keep on paging and to be motivated paging, and the reason we don't ask you to work hard is because we feel you already work so hard and any more would be overkill XDDD (<-- mostly me) *hug squishes rufi some more*

<3<3<3 Your Ebil Muffin
mjkj 4th Oct 2016, 4:16 AM edit delete reply
mjkj
Wow, Cici... O_O so beautifully said*... XD'

I really second every word*, thank you...


* concerning everything said concerning Rufi... (no I will not fight you for Sir Bradley - he is all yours as far as I am concerned...) ;)

rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:07 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Actually, Mjkj, just to clarify... Cici was talking about the Carer, not the Defender XD
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:07 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
LOL Sure, the Preserver can also be called the Stabber behind her back when people know she's out of earshot ;D and gosh, I didn't think Mr. Carer would be to your taste @_@ you may take his fluffiness home and call him Fluffy if you like XDDD

I think it is pretty understandable why people tell me to take a break, and I do appreciate it XD;; (I DO happen to be blessed with the bestest readers in the universe too <3) I think the issue is that if I took a break every time someone suggested it, the comic would go no where :'D It's great to have understanding and caring readers though, so I'm not complaining! Not by far.

*looks at Cici saying 'humanely' and is in marvel* XDDD kidding aside, if my health/well-being/life-stuff was at stake or odds with paging, then I know what's important to prioritise. :) Earlier this year I had that kind of crisis if you recall, with my dad. But I think in this case, I was struggling more with the option between just a more effortless approach (i.e. a very 'whatever' approach) and a more disciplined one (where I page like my life depends on it XD). But you know Cici, there have been days where the update is completely owed to you basically telling me to page regardless of my whining XDDD I can even pick out the pages this happened, LOL! And I appreciate it XD <33 of course I can't always rely on people urging me but I have to say it's really helped give me that extra shove when I needed it, so thank you, my dear pillow-wielding muffin <33

I don't work nearly as hard as I could, honestly! But don't worry, I don't plan to, either XDDD you know me, I need my manga/TV show/doodley derp time as much as anyone :'D <33

<3 ily muffin ;3;*** (your comment was drastically not-ebil XD)
Kat 3rd Oct 2016, 11:12 PM edit delete reply
What? Briar-brat is actually looking kind of remorseful here? *gasp*
I'm still super curious as to how Lyn navigates, if he can't hear or see. Does he use echolocation or something?

And re: Long Rambly Talk-- I DO appreciate on-time updates, and I very much appreciate comics that update more than once a week, but I also get that life happens and people get worn out (I'm always the first to get worn out by anything lol) and there isn't always time, or motivation, for this stuff.
That said, if you DO need someone to "give you a push" once in a while, I'm sure us readers can nag you a bit on the SF Facebook page, or something :P

tl;dr: I very much appreciate timely updates, but take care of yourself too!
mjkj 4th Oct 2016, 4:18 AM edit delete reply
mjkj
@Re: LRT: Seconded.
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:09 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Briar-brat is looking a bit down, ne? XD;;
LOL isn't that how whales or dolphins go around? Or is that how bats go around? Girl I need more National Geographic because I have no idea XDDD (sonar?)
(How Lyn fights despite the blindness and deafness hint: Dragonball XD)

Thanks for letting me know your thoughts on the update thing! Honestly, one of the reasons I try to be on time (like specific times) for updates is because in the past, some of my favourite webcomics had a fixed update schedule and I just knew if I opened that webcomic on a certain day, I'd get a new page, and it was just so good having that assurance of a little fun part of my day. I really wanted to provide that same kind of assurance (though it relies on the hope people do enjoy the comic in the first place XD) since I benefitted from it myself. <3

Feel free to nag, Kat, I give you special nagging rights XDDD I know that people generally don't mind though... I just want to do my best to give people something reliable ^-^
Kat 7th Oct 2016, 12:57 AM edit delete reply
Echolocation is what bats use XD I think dolphins and whales might use sonar... although tbh I don't actually know. But I have heard of a blind person who used echolocation to get around XD
Hahah, uh, I'm probably the most Dragonball-clueless person you'll find around here X'D

Tbh I actually never subscribe to the RSS feed of comics, because for some reason I find it more exciting to go to a comic page every day without knowing beforehand whether it's updated yet or not... I'm weird that way xD

And thank you for trying so hard to keep a regular update schedule despite it all; even if in part, as you said, it's for yourself, we all appreciate it greatly! ^^
Lukkai 28th Oct 2016, 12:01 AM edit delete reply
Lukkai
On a base level, a bat's echolocation and a whale's sonar are pretty much exactly the same.
Both work on soundwaves emitted by the user and the echo of anything the soundwaves hit received. All those received echoes then turned into a 3D picture of their surroundings.
I should add here though that both species also have eyes that they do rely on when the situation allows for it.
rufiangel 29th Oct 2016, 11:14 AM edit delete reply
rufiangel
DUDE XD I'm so glad you're back <333 *glompage*

And this is fascinating! @_@ Hmmm... I suppose it's soooort of like that? XD;;; In Dragonball, I mean. But like, just not echo/sonar, but air particles XD ('cause that makes sense, right?)
Lukkai 31st Oct 2016, 12:36 AM edit delete reply
Lukkai
Well, the main physical laws in the Dragonball-verse are basically the Rule of Awesome and the Rule of Cool, so... ;)

And yeah, time constraints meant I wasn't reading any webcomics for a while. But that has passed, fortunately.
Jarvi 4th Oct 2016, 1:47 AM edit delete reply
Jarvi
Aw poor Rufi-sis <3

I have to tell you that I am noticing when my important comics are not updating, so it's not like no one cares. I do care. I really like your cast and occasional other hotties and cuties and I am always happy for more pages!
But also I think that especially if you do this just for fun, then you totally should rethink your schedule so you have time for yourself too. Once a week is the standard that most comics do and it's usually totally okay but you do whatever is best for you.

<hugs from brother> <3
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:09 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Awww geez Jarvi-nii, thank you ;A;* *many hugs back* isshosweetofyouuu (and I like that you pointed out the important 'hotties and cuties' XDD)

I think a lot of the reason I do this is because it's fun, but a part of me also has a strong professional responsibility to it. I think it's because it's partly my mission in life XD;;; and I want to treat it seriously, even if it's not my 'money maker' as it is. It IS important to enjoy it though, you're right. Most things in life should be done in a way that brings positive feels, regardless of what it is. :)

Because I do 70-page chapters, I think it galls a part of me to think of spending more than one year on a chapter XD;;; that's mostly my fault for structuring my chapters that way, though. The next time I work on a long-form story for a webcomic, I'm going to aim for shorter chapters like most smart folk (like... everyone else XD) do :'D <3
Gilrandir 4th Oct 2016, 2:47 AM edit delete reply
It is a fine line to walk -- between wanting to appear appreciative of new content and eager for more, and not wanting to appear demanding or as though you are pressuring someone who is generously volunteering their efforts on your behalf.

I notice the updates, and I notice the lack of updates. I notice when they come in regularly, and I notice if they come in sporadically. I just never felt as though you promised me that you would update regularly, so I am not entitled to hold you to any such thing. As the recipient of your generosity, it falls to me to enjoy and appreciate what you provide as you see fit.

That having been said, if you want my opinion, I do enjoy it a little more when the updates come regularly. (For one thing, it helps avoid those irritating "What's going on with @rufiangel? Hope everything is all right." questions.) If that helps with the motivation side of things, I am glad to be of service. But, as others have pointed out, the first person you are doing this for is you, and you are the only one whom you should allow to hold you accountable. (At least, in my opinion.) Unless and until you decide to make an explicit commitment to some third party, then that's between you and them. ^_^
mjkj 4th Oct 2016, 4:21 AM edit delete reply
mjkj
Well spoken, Gil, very well spoken...
Gilrandir 4th Oct 2016, 5:32 AM edit delete reply
Thank you.
mjkj 4th Oct 2016, 2:14 PM edit delete reply
mjkj
You are welcome =D
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:09 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Thank you Gil for sharing your thoughts! :) I'm always interested to know what readers think. I'm also a reader of webcomics (lol) so I understand what you're saying, too. Fine line indeed.

To be truthful, a part of what I do is for me, but I'm mostly accountable to my faith. I wrestle a lot, but my conclusions always settle on that foundation. It does help on the discipline and responsibility side of things, honestly, because if this was solely for myself I think I'd really have trouble with a regular update schedule :'D

That said, you're right that for the most part, this isn't something I'm commissioned to do explicitly so I can't really depend on others to motivate me. I agree with that, which is why I also think it's important to find a source of motivation outside of that sphere. Readers DO motivate a lot (ask any webcomic creator XD) but when it comes to a disciplined schedule, that's mostly my prerogative. But it is insightful to learn that you do have preferences for one over the other, though it may not necessarly be the deciding factor. <3

By the way, people do support me on Patreon so I can't get away with saying I am generously doing this for no return XD;;; my dear generous readers tip me for my work, which isn't why I do this but it certainly helps that the website domain and other art supply costs are covered by their support!

(As a side-note... Thank you Gil for sharing your thoughts! :) I'm always interested to know what readers think. I'm also a reader of webcomics (lol) so I understand what you're saying, too. Fine line indeed.

To be truthful, a part of what I do is for me, but I'm mostly accountable to my faith. I wrestle a lot, but my conclusions always settle on that foundation. It does help on the discipline and responsibility side of things, honestly, because if this was solely for myself I think I'd really have trouble with a regular update schedule :'D

That said, you're right that for the most part, this isn't something I'm commissioned to do explicitly so I can't really depend on others to motivate me. I agree with that, which is why I also think it's important to find a source of motivation outside of that sphere. Readers DO motivate a lot (ask any webcomic creator XD) but when it comes to a disciplined schedule, that's mostly my prerogative. But it is insightful to learn that you do have preferences for one over the other, though it may not necessarly be the deciding factor. <3

By the way, people do support me on Patreon so I can't get away with saying I am generously doing this for no return XD;;; my dear generous readers tip me for my work, which isn't why I do this but it certainly helps that the website domain and other art supply costs are covered by their support!
MST3KFan 4th Oct 2016, 5:01 AM edit delete reply
MST3KFan
Rufi,

I just want to say that I love your comic, and look forward to seeing it my updates all the time.

The big thing though I tell myself and feel others should tell themselves whenever things start to get hectic and the comic starts to feel like a chore with work and life in general, and it becomes not fun.

"Take a break."

Don't worry about updating the comic on time, or on a schedule. Your fans understand and can wait for you to feel up to continuing the comic, and look forward to it.

You worry about YOU first. If you were making money off your comic and it was your livelihood, then it could be said maybe to be different, but as it is, this is something you do on the side for fun, so make it that way. You and your health comes first.
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:09 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Aww MST3KFan! <3 That is so super sweet of you, thank you! X3 <33

I actually took a break. XD;;; For the ten days prior to this update, I took an actual break, but it didn't help the motivational block. I think it made it worse, to be honest. :'D But that's nothing on the break, it's more like I had a problem that I needed to solve. To be fair, though, I think the break was necessary!

I don't have to worry about updating the comic on time, or on a schedule. This is true, and I agree and appreciate you stating this. What I questioned while I was away was why anyone would bother, if it doesn't seem to matter. The conclusion I've drawn is, well, if I have the ability to be disciplined about it, and I have that choice, then I want to do the best I can with what I've been given. :)

But yes, definitely not at the cost of my health, physically or mentally! I will strive to do my best without compromising those things. XD; I appreciate your concern, and your kind words and advice, MST3K!
MizuNoRyuu 4th Oct 2016, 5:47 AM edit delete reply
MizuNoRyuu
Hmm, new bigshot character that's the father of the kid that's the master of Kylie's brother... Perchance he gave his son the servant and bodyguard....? *insert thinking face*

Re "tl;dr":
It's not really weird. As artists/webcomic artists, we are our own boss and employee, so we tend to be harder on ourselves than most people are on themselves/than anyone realizes. I've experienced the same, I'd miss deadlines and start being hard on myself because I would've fired myself for missing the deadline! That actually caused part of my collapse a couple years ago. I've kind of gotten over it since then. We're only human.

You've already figured it out, but it's amazing that your fans are so caring and are worried about your wellbeing over the comic. Super famous YouTubers and webcomic artists get a ton of flak from fans from, "Oh, they're putting out crap just to keep up with deadlines, quality is dropping." to "Y U NO UPDATE IN 4EVER?! THE FANS WANT THEYR ENTERTAINMENT!". Since they do put your wellbeing first, know that they will also stand behind you on any decision you make. :) They're that kind of people.

Enjoy your church retreat and every moment you have in general. :) You do you. And everyone's here for you too. :)
mjkj 4th Oct 2016, 2:21 PM edit delete reply
mjkj
So true, Mizu...
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:10 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Hehe, Mizu, he very well might have... ;)

That is very true. It really is so good to hear it from a similar perspective and confirm that it's not that weird, after all. XD; Motivation blocks suck, especially when they're so inexplicable. I'm glad I'm not the only one who suffers it, but I'm sorry as well that you had to go under this pressure to the point of collapse :( I'm so glad you're over that hump/slump now though!

I *am* astonished over again by the supportiveness of SF's readers. I think I can chalk this up to the general laidback feels of the community of CF and the kindness of lovely webcomic enthusiasts. But overall I consider it a major blessing ;3;* I'm very thankful readers tend to care more about my well-being than the comic output XD;;; it's surprising?!??! But that's not on me, that's on all of you lovely human beings <3 *embraces all of you*

And omigosh your last line is so super sweet you wonderful Mizu-rin you <333 *squees* It'll be a pretty packed time out of town, but I also hope it'll be fruitful :D I'll see y'all again when I get back!

Thank you so much Mizu-rin for all your kind words and encouragement, always <3
Eren 4th Oct 2016, 5:50 AM edit delete reply
First time commenting here, though I've been reading for a while. Just wanted to say that your comic is awesome. You craft a really good story, with fun, relatable, and intriguing characters, and a setting that's comfortably RPG-familiar while being complex, unique, and completely its own thing. And you are really good at spinning a mystery - keeping readers in suspense and wondering what's going to happen next, what secrets are going to be revealed.

As a fellow comic creator who recently had to take an extended hiatus, I know what you mean about the motivation. On the one hand, people saying, "No worries, take your time, we can wait" can feel like "Nobody really NEEDS my story, so why bother worrying so much about it?" On the other hand, when you're not feeling your best, comments like "Where are the new pages? When are you starting updates again?" can feel like "Bad artist, letting people down!" ...and be just as de-motivating. Even though both types of comments are meant to be encouraging and understanding on the part of the readers. Motivation is a weird thing. Or artist-brains are, anyway. I don't know what the answer is... I guess it's personal to each artist. Since my comic has started updating again, seeing readers reacting to the new pages has really helped revive the desire to work hard and share the story with them.

If it's encouraging at all, I've been checking back here every day to see if you've posted the next page yet. :)

At any rate, good luck with the comic and everything else!
mjkj 5th Oct 2016, 3:22 AM edit delete reply
mjkj
Welcome to the comments, Eren =)

...yeah you sum it up quite nicely - though I am just a reader - if you picture it like that I can see how everything can get misinterpreted...

Eren 5th Oct 2016, 4:30 AM edit delete reply
Thanks for the welcome!

Not misinterpreted - I know the readers genuinely mean to be encouraging, and I definitely appreciate their comments. It's more that motivation is not a rational animal. Does not respond well to Enthusiasm Restore potions. Especially if you're working on a very long-term project, or are stressed out over other things. You feel like the key to getting your drive back SHOULD be simple.. but it never is.
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:10 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Yep, this. :'D <3

Don't worry Mjkj, it's not that the reader comments are being misinterpreted! I know where the readers are coming from, and I do appreciate it. :) It may not address the problem, but it helps to know that readers care. <3
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:10 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Hello Eren! :D <3 That is such a glowing comment, thank you so much ;___;* I'm really glad you find all those things in SF! I'm so pleased and flattered and afwyuuuu <333

And yes. And YES. AND YES. Gosh darn, this. :'D Knowing that you know where I'm coming from really makes me feel better! <3 (I mean, reading all these comments fills me with much warmth on this cold, lonely road XD I feel less lonely!) Artist-brains are really difficult sometimes :'D

(thatissoniceofyoutosayouvebeencheckingbackahhhh<333)

I want to know what your webcomic is! Can I know what your webcomic is? :D If you're shy you can always PM/email it to me fufufu <3

Thank you for taking the time to comment!! Honestly I just kept nodding along to it XD it's very affirming!
Eren 18th Jan 2017, 5:29 PM edit delete reply
I'm sorry for the late reply! I intended to answer right away but got sidetracked before I could decide what to say... (I've been following along with the comic updates, though)

And yeah - I think that feeling is something a lot of artists can relate to! I'm glad if my commiserating was helpful. *High-five of art stress solidarity!*

My comic is at tamurancomic.com - we just went on between-chapter hiatus again. A friend of mine writes the story, and I do the art and write a few of the characters (and edit).
rufiangel 20th Jan 2017, 11:42 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Omigosh ;v;* no need to be sorry! I'm still so touched you decided to follow up XD <33

*High-fives for that YEAH* <333

I'ma bookmark that comic and read it all, it looks wonderful ;v;*** I'm very honoured you read SF!! Thankyew so much *bows low* m(_ _)m
Eren 24th Jan 2017, 10:34 AM edit delete reply
ahh, thank you! I hope you enjoy the comic. And thank YOU for making such an awesome story!

Come to think of it, if you ever want a community of other comic artists to chat/talk shop with, SpiderForest (the comic collective we belong to, spiderforest.com) is made up of some really cool people. Most sections of the forums are open to everybody, not just members.
rufiangel 24th Jan 2017, 3:46 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
<33 Aww, that's super sweet of you to suggest I take a look :D I'll definitely be taking a look! X3

SpiderForest has good repute \(*^3^*)/
Eren 24th Jan 2017, 4:34 PM edit delete reply
:)

If you ever decide to apply to join, you have my endorsement, btw. (No worries if you don't, of course. Just saying for purposes of the "did somebody refer you?" question on the application.)
rufiangel 25th Jan 2017, 11:13 AM edit delete reply
rufiangel
AWWW you are the sweetest!!! ;A;*** <333 thank you!! That means a lot to me, that you'd endorse me for that ;v;*** <333 *hugs*

I don't know if this is the place to keep yakking on but XD *does it anyway*

Zappit posted about SpiderForest applications in the last round (or last last round) of applications in the ComicFury forums, so I remember taking a look at the application FAQ (I didn't look at the forums at the time though - I'm exploring the community now at your gentle prompt ^3^*/). SpiderForest seems lovely and appears to be a strongly community-based network, so I felt like I needed to know more SF comics and creators before giving applications a go. (I felt like knowing only Supervillainous was probably not enough, as much as I love that comic XD) (Now I'm reading yours so that's one more I can add to the list <3 XD)

Now I promise I'm not fishing, but quite honestly, one other thing in the application that is a hurdle for me is the "what can you bring to the table?" question, because I honestly cannot really think of anything!! XD;;;; Serpamia Flare is a long-running fantasy comic, which is hardly an innovation in the webcomic kingdom, and I personally suck so hard at HTML/CSS it just chews me up and spits me back out most of the time. :'D I also live in Hong Kong, which makes conventions or merchandising knowhow a bit of a distant dream on my end, lol. I feel somewhat inadequate OTL;;; or maybe I'm just not the best fit for what Spider Forest is looking for in terms of contribution? >_>a It could be an impression of mine that changes the more I explore the community. Either way, I'm having fun checking out the forums. ^3^*

Again, THANK YOU Eren - you are so super sweet and I'm very grateful for your support ;v;* *hugs again for good measure*
Eren 27th Jan 2017, 12:38 PM edit delete reply
Heh, if you want to keep talking here I don't mind. It's your site and your rules, after all. I'm @ancient-trees on tumblr, though I've been posting more politics than art lately (and still need to learn how to properly tag things...)

You don't HAVE to be super good friends with everybody to join SF (though saying hi in the forums helps. I haven't been as active there as I'd like, myself). Though I can see how you'd want to be more familiar with more of the comics first. Mostly you just have to be willing to help promote each other's projects (they do things like voluntary "comic of the week" exchanges) and vote on new member applications. There's other just-for-fun collective-based projects, too. They just don't want people joining who are going to treat it as a link exchange for "free traffic" and nothing else. (I think you'd also have to move your comic to either independent hosting or SpiderForest's servers (if they're offering hosting this round), if that's a deal breaker. For branding reasons they don't allow comics hosted on networks like ComicFury. We have experienced coders to help move/set up a new site, but I'd have to ask them whether you'd be able to keep all the updates and comments intact. I don't know how ComicFury's posting system and databases work.)

I know the feeling, re: "what can you bring to the table". Don't worry too much - it's not really a "how is your comic the Most Uniquest Ever?" question. Things I would think about: you have 4+ years of dedicated experience making your comic and maintaining a community, you have a solidly built story with complex characters and worldbuilding that put a new spin on a familiar genre, your art is good and you don't skimp on things like backgrounds, and you've built a devoted and enthusiastic reader base. You also have some experience with self-publishing, don't you? And I imagine living in Hong Kong would give you a different perspective from a creator in the US or Australia or anywhere else, too. Mostly what they're looking for is applicants that are dedicated and make a good comic, and are a good fit for the community - and if you like what you're seeing in the forums, you'll probably fit in well. My other suggestion for answering the question would be to read over your page comments and look at what the readers have had to say about the comic - what people point out as its strengths and unique points, what they like about it.

You are very welcome! I'm happy to help. *hugs back*
Kat 6th Oct 2016, 10:37 PM edit delete reply
Welcome :)
^ I second all of that even though I'm just a reader for now...
And hey... aren't you the author of Tamuran? :)
Eren 18th Jan 2017, 5:32 PM edit delete reply
A really really really belated thank you.. sorry for replying so late!

And yeah, that's me - or artist and co-writer of Tamuran, rather. :)
Skweeee 4th Oct 2016, 11:25 AM edit delete reply
Skweeee
I've been away for a year. For me, motivation will come in waves. I've learned just to accept that, and also to forgive myself for being me.

Sometimes it's not necessarily a 'break' that was needed, but rather a change.
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:10 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Skweeee! SKWEEEE! @_@ HI YOUUU! I'm very pleased to see you!! <3 Thank you for taking the time to drop a comment here!! ;3;*
You're right, it does tend to come and go in waves. And yes to the 'change' > 'break'. Absolutely. >3<*
*leaves all the choco on Skweee's desk* <3
Allzephyr 4th Oct 2016, 12:55 PM edit delete reply
Allzephyr
As a writer who hasn't ever finished a story, and as a calligrapher who hasn't produced in almost a year, believe me when I say I understand the dilemma that is motivation. The best work (or work, period) is almost always made under some sort of pressure, but at the same time it has to be something you enjoy producing. With this comic, on the whole, you seem to have found that balance, even through the inevitable setbacks. That is something that I can truly respect.

So as always, thank you for sharing with us and for letting us be a part of your work. However things might seem, seeing that subscription notice ping at the top of the feed is a highlight of the week for all of us.
And now, off to a session of ice-cream eating and Shia Leboeuf brainwashing for me.
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:11 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Wait... you're a calligrapher?!?!? How could I not know this gem about you :'D if you've ever mentioned this in the forums and I missed it, blwagh! Where can I see your work! :D (Even from over a year ago ;D)

I really am touched by your words... thank you ;3;* it's really kind of you, and I'm glad to be able to connect with people on that level. It IS hard, I can't lie, but it really is worth so much fruit when I get past most of the slog uphill. I'm especially happy to know that the ping gives you a little thing to look forward to in the week <333 >3<*

(I approve of that session XD)
Allzephyr 9th Oct 2016, 1:51 PM edit delete reply
Allzephyr
Wellllll.... it's never really come up before because it's really more of a hobby than anything else. I picked Chinese/Japanese calligraphy up a few years back because I have no talent for drawing and it seemed up my alley. However, due to my horrendous work ethic I've only ever produced to satisfaction twice and I hardly ever pick up my brush. Just reading all this though has inspired me to practice again, and for that I am grateful.

Because Shia Leboeuf never works (the ice-cream ain't much help either).
rufiangel 24th Oct 2016, 12:31 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
<333 I am happy to be a tiny spark of inspiration somewhere in your life XD *cheers with tiny calligraphy brushes* now your avatar suddenly has newfound meaning to me, btw XD <3

(Ice-cream remedies most after we get stuck. XD;;;)
DLKmusic 5th Oct 2016, 7:43 AM edit delete reply
DLKmusic
The comic, again, is awesome!

You have dedicated a good portion of your life for 14 years for this, and we all appreciate you for it. If you need to slow down a little, no-body has any right to say anything negative about that, least of all me!

I write music, and have not produced a new song in over 5 years, either because I'm dry of decent ideas, or because I'm too fat and lazy, or, or, or.... But I would like to add that I have written two songs since you let everyone know that that this was your 14th year, and it inspired (and shamed) me. I don't know if that tidbit will help or not, but...

Just remember that your fan-base loves both your art and you!

(the great DLK has spoken, that is all!)
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:11 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
@_@ Th-thank you, DLK!

I'm super surprised but happy to think that the comic could've helped you to feel motivated and inspired enough to write two songs! That's... that's beautiful XD *sheds a tear* <33 Honestly, I'm so pleased to think creativity begets creativity <3 I hope you've been continually inspired to work on more music since, any chance of sharing what you've been working on? :D <3

It does help, but you know that a lot of those 14 years, SF was in indefinite hiatus in terms of updates. I was working on it off-screen during that time, but it was a very long slumber. :'D I understand how it happens. I really do. It's why I struggle! XD;

I'm always amazed when people say such kind things about my art, or about me. Honestly, why am I surrounded by such kind people XD;;; <33 thank you so much for your kind and encouraging words, DLK! <33
Seabiscuit 5th Oct 2016, 7:55 AM edit delete reply
Seabiscuit
Aww, this kid...

Ahhh gosh, I'm sorry things are so busy for you! I can only imagine drawing a comic this amazing and keeping up with a full time job is insanely rough, ahhh D:
I mean, we all love and appreciate the updates, but still- It's admirable that you work so hard, but, think about your health and stuff, too! That's the most important thing D:
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:11 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
I'm kind of wondering how people are going to react to him in general as this chapter wraps up, and the next one unfolds XD; he's not a 'bad kid'... is he?

Also, seamuffin, YOU'RE the one I'm always like 'HOW DOES SHE DO IT' XD;;;; I mean, you've been super consistent without any prolonged breaks for AGES @_@ plus you've got other personal stuff going on that's a huge wrestling match for you... girl, mad respect. *thumps chest with fist*

Thank you for such kind words though ;3;* <3 and I know, I do! I'll always try to keep a good balance between all the things. That balancing act in itself is always a struggle but it's always encouraging to see other fellow comic-artists doing the exact same thing... and managing. <3 >3<*)7
Zane 5th Oct 2016, 2:01 PM edit delete reply
Nooooo. Find your motivation. So many artists and comic makes I've seen have just disappeared off the face of the earth leaving us in suspense for months to years on end. Examples include but are not limited to : Yuumei, Tato, Torakun, Aerinn, Jen, Mayunnaize, Zelkats, Hayel/Chocodevil. You're doing a great job. Never give up! Never surrender! Be a Kylie, not a Cain! *battle cry*
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:19 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Hi Zane! Oh gosh, I'm sorry for causing worry. :'D Please don't! I am of like mind. There are so many webcomics that got dropped that made me super super sad, so I really don't want to ever do that!

That battle cry is amazing though XDDD thank you Zane, lolol! <33 I'll do my best to... be a Kylie, not a Cain XDD

(Cain: shikushikushiku)
Crestlinger 6th Oct 2016, 11:00 AM edit delete reply
Sheltered = spoiled? We'll see but certainly plausible. Cure = Kylie as teacher.
rufiangel 6th Oct 2016, 6:20 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Plausibly! ;)

Lolol, that sounds like a painful lesson to be had... XD;
Proxy170 7th Oct 2016, 2:58 AM edit delete reply
Proxy170
First off, you know we all love this story and care about your well being, so it'd be a bit heartless to say "Yea, c'mon Rufi, where's the update??" like you're some sort of slave comic artist >.< But we know if we take care of Rufi's sanity, we'll eventually get those pages we love!

The way I see the update process (and really, comic making in general) is it HAS to be a selfish process. You have to want it, regardless of others. Forcing an update timeline is just how I try to meet goals and deadlines. And any fans I pick up along the way are just an added bonus.

So while I want to selfishly scream "more updates!!" I hope you're actually doing it for yourself, because at the end of the day it's about how you look back on your journey that defines your comic, not us :)
rufiangel 24th Oct 2016, 1:03 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Aww Proxy! Thank you so much for your comment, it's so kind of you to take a moment and let me know your thoughts :D <33

I think I did go through a phase a couple of years ago, where I worked obsessively on SF but it made me a complete jerk to my family XD;;;; so I had to pause and do a heart check so I could see what was really important to me and prioritise accordingly, as well as tell myself it's okay to sometimes, well, update late when it comes to those priorities. It's a matter of good boundaries, but I guess it takes life experience to learn where to draw those lines over time. (At least, it does for me XD;)

Motivation for being disciplined is probably best not coming from readers, now that you mention it. :) I recognise that, and I'm grateful for such understanding readers and artists alike!
TheD-Wrek 12th Oct 2016, 7:06 AM edit delete reply
TheD-Wrek
I know that feel, Ruuf. All too well!

Glad to see yer getting back on that art horse.

Page looks amazing and looking forward to more. :)
rufiangel 24th Oct 2016, 1:04 PM edit delete reply
rufiangel
Aww D-bruh! <3 Thank you so much for always being such an encouraging bruh <33

Motivation blocks suck :'D